One thing to you can be sure of is that life goes on, with or without your involvement. Our lives have been forever changed by ALS, in fact we were all personally changed because of it. Nothing about our futures happened the way we thought it would.
We thought that Mom would live to be in her 90's, and we thought she would outlive Dad. After all she was ten years younger than him. My brother and I even discussed how we would take care of our aging parents. But as of yet, we didn't look at them as being old. Mom was planning on working till she was at least 70. When she passed she was only 66. Dad, who was 76 was still working until it was apparent that Mom needed him home more. I was doing fine taking care of her, Dad just wanted to be there. And that was ok with me.
My parents were full of life and still very much in love. Even today, Dad talks about how good they were together. He keeps the house just the way she liked it as if she would arrive home any day.
It has been five months since Mom has passed away and we keep her memory alive each day. Everything reminds me of her and quite often I wish I could just call her up and chat awhile. Because life still goes on.
My daughter just got married and I am expecting another nephew any day now. Birthdays have come and gone as well as a couple of holidays. Mom and Dad's anniversary was this month. Life goes on.
Dad has gone back to work. Me, well, I am still trying to figure out what to do now. I made so many changes to be here for Mom. Now, well, I am just here.
I do plan on still blogging about our journey. Because I don't believe that you actually ever get over something. It just becomes part of who you are.
Thank you for reading this blog and being a part of our lives.
More to come.....
Thank you for sharing this, Cath. It is heart felt and will help others.
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